While struggling a lot with academics in high school and struggling to balance school, work, and just simply time for myself I was always telling myself I would do better in college. I have been in college for over half a year now and I keep telling myself next month I will do better, but it doesn’t always seem to happen. I have started working more hours on top of having more homework. I normally work five to six days a week and never get weekends off. I do enjoy my job as a lifeguard. It is my type of temperament and the hands-on job I like but I am always putting work first and forgetting about my schoolwork. I also have been volunteering less and not in my community as much as I would like to be, it makes me sad but knowing I can pay rent and feed my dog is what keeps me working.
While the last few months have been the school, work, sleep, then repeat cycle I have found it rewarding in a few different ways but the pile of things I need to get done keeps piling up. I have a professor who loves group projects and I mean loves making us do group projects and he makes it, so we always work in groups. I don’t normally mind the projects, but we have a few group members that rarely participate, and the professor has it set up where you can only get graded for your work. So basically, I do my half and the other two slack off, and I do the whole project. I receive just my portion of the grade. The professor says it’s for us to learn and handle others in different situations and I just feel I go the short end of the stick with groups and am not doing as well as I would like. Even though it is stressful and may cause me to randomly scream, I know at the end of the day I’m doing what I should be, and it will be okay.
