Life currently is almost as stressful as it has ever been. The workload is picking up. I have to now constantly be on top of things. I feel like if I relax for even one second, I suddenly have missing assignments and a failing grade in two of my classes. I can’t even sit down and watch an episode of my favorite television show or watch a movie without feeling like I have some assignment I forgot about looming over me. I try to make myself available as often as possible and spread my time out evenly, but the anxious thoughts are always barging in and making me not feel like I am doing enough or anything at all.
The workload has now also affected my social life, as I am now seeing my friends less and less. I always try to make time for them, but sometimes I feel like they don’t want to see me anymore. I don’t know what I’ve done. I try so hard to be a good friend. I don’t complain about gas when we all go out. I buy them things when they are short on cash. I care about stupid arguments with boyfriends, rants about their jobs, and small trivial events in their lives when they can’t care about one small thing in mine. When I ask what is wrong I am met with cold, brief answers that leave me questioning what I did wrong. I don’t know if I like what my college life is turning out to be anymore.